Looking like a Drowned Kat

Happy Valentine's Day!!! No matter how loud or often I say that, I still can not bring myself to like Valentine's Day. For years I said that V-day was just a commercial holiday that was made up for people who were single to feel bad. I just didn't see the point in celebrating the holiday of a Catholic saint. What made Valentine so special? Why don't we make a big deal out of St. Anne's day or St. Felix or St. Catherine? Pretty cynical, huh?

I have changed my attitude since then though. Although I am still not a huge fan of Valentine's Day, I don't hate either. This year I had to admit to myself that the real reason that I didn't like V-day was because I had never had anyone to share it with. He took one of my close friends being blunt with me to realize that. Though I am sad that I don't have a reason to be excited about Valentine's Day, I am not on it like I was before. I should spoil the day for everyone else just because I have an aversion to it.

Actually, Valentine's day was an okay day for me. It was a little lonely due to being on clinical and then working for most of the day, but it wasn't a too bad day. A really good friend of mine helped me to see that Valentine's day could be an alright day. She said something to me that completely made sense. She, being single herself, said, "Even though Valentine's Day is kind of sad today, I love Valentine's Day because of the potential it could have." I know that my Valentine's Day won't always be like this Valentine's, but I am sort of hoping that they start changing soon rather than later.

Despite all this, God has taught me so much about love in a way that only He can. No matter how lonely Valentine's Day may be, I can remember that God's love should always be enough for me. God loved me enough to send His only son to die for me. Love that great is amazing and nothing to be brushed aside. I can't even begin to imagine how much God loves me because it is beyond my finite mind. God's love is the best kind of love that I could get on Valentine's Day. I know that every Valentine's Day will be perfect if I am drowning in God's love.